Sewing my way through Life

Just like how Fiyero was wanting us to Dance through life; Well, I’m trying to sew through life. Not only for myself, but in memory of my Late-Oma, who taught me almost everything I know.

When I was little, I just wanted to be like my Oma- at the time, she was just Grandma though. For a long time, off and on, I would live in the upstairs of her Duplex that she owned. Whether it be while i was since a toddler, or a teen in high school, to just sleepovers with my younger aunts- who have felt more like sisters my whole life. My Grandma was in the Army so you know she was kind of a Badass already. But she was also the most loving person you would come to know if you met her.

Back on 2018, me and Oma- who started to go by Oma in the later 2010s- we took our first sewing class. She already knew kind of how to sew as she used to make clothing for herself when she was younger, but she wanted a refresher, and for me, I’ve always wanted to learn how to sew so I could make my own Cosplays for Anime Cons rather than spend hundreds of dollars on pre-made, not that great fitting, costumes online. Well look where that landed us know HA! Anyways, we both fell in love with sewing for so many reasons, but I think my main reason, we that I could spend more time with her, since I had lost so many years due to other family member related issues. Once that class was done, we started taking more classes using different kinds of fabric and boy, it was just so fun.

In 2020, we started making blankets, and I still have my tie blanket I made for my husband with her help. I’m too afraid to keep it out though, cause with us having two cats that like to make biscuits on every blankets in the house, it would not be a good idea.

In 2022/2023, I can t remember exactly, but she decided to sell the home she has lived in my whole life, where I have spend toons of time at, and move to help one of my aunts and take care of my baby cousin in Indiana. I was devastated to say the least. Not only was our shared sewing room no longer an option to sew together, but “losing” her for a 5 hour away drive one-way, was terrifying. I was a little selfish, I must admit. I wanted her to stay in the same state we have always been, stay for me, her eldest Grandchild, and her favorite sewing buddy. But I did not win that war, not to really say it was a war, but I did battle with like half grieve in my mind.

I was only able to visit her once at her new home in Indiana during a vacation me and my husband took to visit her other daughter who lives in Tennessee, where we decided we would drive to and from for our vacation. Oma did visit Wisconsin quite a bit for her German klub, and to see me and such. But it was never enough.

When we all officially lost her in 2025. I knew I wouldn’t be the same. Whether it be in my work, or my life in general. She was always my number one supporter in my sewing career, and was the one who ultimately said I should sew for people and not myself. I told her that she should sell the scarfs she was making out of this extremely expensive fabric, and she said, “But if I charge people, then it means nothing but a transaction.” And I felt that on a deeper level than I think she intended it to. I think I took it in the way where if I sell my makes, that maybe I can make people happy and feel cozy. Which is exactly what I’m trying to do now. So as I sew on a create my products, I go on with hopefully the message that I hope I make you feel cozy with what you have gotten from me and that it continues to brighten your day by day.

With this all said, I just hope to be able to sew in her memory now that she is gone. But is she truly gone if I’m using her machine and fabric?? Of course not. She’s just watching over and guiding my needle and thread through every stitch I make.

I dedicate this small business and just my whole being to her. I love you Oma, forever and always.